Typical Scorpio Life Quote: I’ve been fishin’ in the wrong pond

Do you ever look around yourself and think “I’ve been fishing in the wrong pond”? For too long I’ve been trying to, as Gretchen Wieners once said, “make fetch happen” when it comes to diet and lifestyle. But unfortunately, for Gretchen and myself, fetch just isn’t going to happen. A great man once said “love is like a fart;

if you have to force it, it’s probably crap.” Same concept as fetch. Sometimes we try so hard to dictate a situation and control every little thing as it’s happening. Sometimes we come up with a whole plan in our heads as to how an afternoon or interaction is going to go and it ends up being completely different than we thought. We set expectations with people we’re meeting, events we’re attending, places we’re moving to, classes we’re starting, phone calls we’re taking, etc. and by doing so, it’s pretty easy to get frustrated or let down when things don’t pan out the way we thought they would.

Instead of fishing for truth, faith and unconditional love, I’ve been fishing for good looks and a skinny body, and hoping I find self acceptance and meaning through achieving those things. I spent years under-eating and over-exercising trying to work my way to what I thought of as a “perfect” body.Turns out I’d been fishing in the wrong pond.

When I found RawTill4, I thought I had found the elixir of life. The fountain of youth. The answer to my unhappiness. A dream come true. I had struggled with not knowing how to eat for a long time, and was anorexic, bulimic, and an exercise addict for a massive chunk of my 22 year old life. It was a lifestyle that taught me that I could eat a lot more than I thought was okay, without worrying about weight or proper “food pyramid nutrition”.

I followed it mostly on for a couple of months and was glowing. I preached about it to everyone and laughed quietly to myself as I ate huge bowls of Nicecream and watched High Carb Vegan YouTube videos.

And then, being the Scorpio that I am, I tore it all down. I decided I wasn’t going to do it any more. I decided it was isolating me from other people, and was too much unnecessary sugar. I decided I wanted to learn will power again and eat every food available.

I quit and gained a bunch of weight. I started eating meat and eggs and pizza, eating ice cream. I got sick for 2 weeks. I had no energy. My skin developed blemishes. I was bloated and constipated. I felt like a lost seed that was blowing in the wind, not really knowing where it wanted to plant itself. But I suppose that’s a Scorpio thing. And it’s also a 20something thing. So it’s especially a 20something Scorpio thing.

Though just this once, I’m going to let myself eat fruit again. I’ve been fishing in the wrong pond. The fish pond. I don’t want fish. They don’t contain many carbohydrates. I want the fruit of the Spirit and the fruit of the trees.

Steve Jobs was a fruitarian. At least for a while. Nevermind about the whole Ashton Kutcher hospitalization thing. Only fools rush in.

Overall, as Albert Einstein once said, “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”. Well, I’m in it to win it this time around. Plant foods lifestyle is the money. The jam. The fruit jam. I’ma play fetch the banana… and it’s going to happen.<3

~*~

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5 thoughts on “Typical Scorpio Life Quote: I’ve been fishin’ in the wrong pond

  1. I feel your pain! The struggle is real 😖. It’s not easy ever. I recently lost a bunch of weight this past year and I sometimes I feel like a slave to my diet. I binge then I regret and spend the next couple of weeks trying to lose the binge weight and go back to strict eating only to mess up again! It’s a terrible cycle. I too am trying to stick to a healthier more plant based diet but at the same time learn better habits and some sense of portion control! I wish you luck! ❤

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    • Thanks for sharing your experience! Finding an eating regiment that works specifically for our bodies is very difficult since there is SO much information about what’s “best” to do or eat. If you like to eat a lot or eat until you’re FULL look up “low fat high carb vegan” or “rawtill4” on Youtube if you haven’t found it already. Very cool lifestyle. ❤

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  2. I’m sorry you had to go through anorexia and bulimia. It’s hell. And getting back into the swing of things with diet and nutrition is hard. I actually did a blog post on the link between nutrition and mental health if you want to check it out. http://www.journeytoanxietyfree.com/the-growing-link-between-nutrition-and-mental-health-yahoo-health/
    Also, I highly recommend the book The Anti-Anxiety Food Solution by Trudy Scott, CN. It’s basically a guide to figuring out what diet is right for you to help improve your moods and get a handle on your anxiety. I found it really helpful. 🙂 Here’s a link to it on Amazon if you want to check it out: http://www.amazon.com/Antianxiety-Food-Solution-Anxious-Cravings/dp/1572249250/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1437417112&sr=1-1&keywords=the+anti-anxiety+food+solution

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